So, here’s the story of how this bed head ridiculousness all began.
It was two years ago and I was quite new to Instagram. I thought it was fun. I loved all the filters, and especially, all the frames. Yeah, I know.
I can’t even tell you who I was following, but I started noticing this thing that people did…
People taking pictures of themselves. (this is way before I knew what a selfie was)
Beautiful, flawless, lovely pictures.
And for the caption there would be a quote of some sort. Or maybe no caption. Or maybe a caption that had nothing to do with the picture of their beautiful, flawless, lovely self. But this isn’t about the captions…I get distracted. Sorry.
Any way, where were we? Oh yes, beautiful, flawless, lovely pictures. And I thought to myself….
Heh. I bet you don’t look like that when you first wake up.
You have to understand that at this time, I had recently come out of years of awesome depression. And by awesome, I mean – it totally sucked.
For years I had been on the hampster wheel of life. I had been treading just to keep my head above the water for way too long. But you know what eventually happens when you can’t tread anymore?
So, I sank.
But then I was thrown a life preserver.
And I saw life differently. I saw all the masks we wear. I saw how so many people were really afraid, or hurt, or struggling. And I couldn’t see anyone acknowledging these things.
I craved authenticity. I wanted real. I had been trying for so long to keep my big girl panties on and had finally thrown in the towel. Because pretending like everything is fine when it isn’t….is not okay. Okay? It’s just not.
I wasn’t into this picture perfect Instagram world anymore. And so that morning while laying in bed scrolling through my picture perfect Instagram feed, and saying I bet you don’t look like that when you first wake up. I then said…
This wasn’t said to be snarky or rude. It was more out of a desperation to show other people they don’t have to be picture perfect. I’m sure that was pretty effective to my ginormous following of two. But hey, gotta start somewhere.
All that to say, I posted this picture of my beautiful, flawless, lovely self:
And so started #mymorningmop, to show everyone, you’re beautiful, flawless, lovely self is perfect just the way it is. Bed head and all.
Love you crazies!