It just takes time

The lonely has set in.

The excitement of the new has worn off.

I realize it most when I drive down the unfamiliar roads.

I’m reminded of it when I can’t find what I’m looking for in Target.

Or when I am in the grocery store and it dawns on me that I won’t run into anyone I know…because I don’t know anyone here.

Sometimes there is a freedom in that… no one knowing you.  But mostly, it makes me feel lonely.

alone

The other night HJ told me to “go out.” I was hesitant. What would I do? Where should I go?

It was a reminder of how much I missed home. Which home, I’m not sure. Maybe I only missed something familiar.

Moving is hard.

Starting over is hard.

I’ve done this enough to know it will get better.

It just takes time.

And that’s the part I hate. Knowing that in order to find the friendships and community, I have to walk down this lonely road first.

But it will be worth it.

I think.

I hope.

I know.

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4 Responses to It just takes time

  1. Betsy says:

    Moving. Is. Hard. And then add four kids… This is exactly where I am at too. Thank you for sharing.
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  2. davita says:

    Starting over is so hard. But keep putting yourself out there, it will get better.
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  3. Judy says:

    Amber — you are never alone! All your fans and Brave Girl sisters and your posse are with you and love you so very much. You have the grace and courage to make new friends and create a home wherever you are. Know that I believe in you :-)

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