The post about when I stopped blogging for a month

So, you might have noticed I haven’t written much lately…like two times in the last 30 days! (And then this and this this week.) But if you haven’t noticed… sweet.

I could write a detailed post about why, but honestly, I don’t feel like it and even if I did, I don’t think I would publish it.

I know there is a fine line between being honest & authentic and then just being a Debbie Downer. I really don’t want to be the latter, but wanted to give a little explanation…for my few faithful readers;)… and then move on.

So, let’s just say that about 8 weeks ago, I hit a few roadblocks.  Most people would probably recover, but for me, it kind of sent me into a tailspin. I got pretty down. As in, I wanted to crawl into a dark hole and remove myself from life for a while.

And… I kinda did just that. Well, not completely… I have four little people I’m responsible for, remember?

Falling into this pit always brings out my fears, my doubts and in turn, my insecurities surface. I questioned this whole blogging thing: this is stupid, silly, pointless, why am I even doing this? 

I didn’t feel adequate to write, because I didn’t think I had anything worth saying.  I had posts scheduled and told people I would, but failed to publish them.

I froze and felt paralyzed.

Maybe no one will notice if I just don’t show up anymore. 

But, some of you did.*

I made a poor attempt to “stay connected” on social media, but it was mostly because I was afraid of being forgotten. (Ironic, right? Man, I am a piece of work!)

Last week, I had a breakdown breakthrough. I think it’s what I needed to get me over the hump and back into reality. I’m hoping to get back to writing consistently. I realized how I much I missed it.

So there it is… I have down days, like really down days. And weeks. And sometimes even months.

And for those who struggle with this too… you are not alone! Call me and we can hang out in our pits together ;)

But like all the times before, I eventually find my way out.

So here I am, again… and let’s hope this is Miss Debbie Downer’s last appearance on this little bliggity blog (but I can’t make any promises).

*I want to thank those of you who noticed my absence and told me. It means a lot. For reals.

Okay, glad I got that out of the way. Now, let’s move on… see you tomorrow :)

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4 Responses to The post about when I stopped blogging for a month

  1. Julie McCoy says:

    GLAD you are back…missed your words, thoughts and writings. I am new to your blog and reading it is becoming a good habit for me. THANK YOU!

  2. Disappearing for a while has it’s benefits and I have contemplated it on more than one occasion. Fairly recently even, and I may. When writing starts feeling like a job you have to show up for instead of something you do for fun it’s time to evaluate. Make it a job, do it for fun, or something in-between and start from there.

    Over the summer I started posting every day. It was mostly for my mental health and before I knew it I felt obligated to write something everyday. I created a habit that I had become a slave to. I had to give myself permission to let it go. It’s not like I am going to get fired:-) One day I know I will wake up and realize the blog has served it’s purpose and I’m done.

    I hope that you can find the balance between honesty and authenticity that works for you. You aren’t alone.
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    • Amber says:

      You’re words are always so encouraging. I realized how blogging is great for mental health :) I’ve got too much in my head that needs to get out, whether people want to hear it or not – ha!

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